OMFG guys have I told you about my bitch thesis preproduction teacher? I swear I get pissed off even more at him every week that goes by.

So I've said many times already about how I'm no modeler and I'm an animator right? Well I do this in school where it's necessary because it's important, I just want people to know that I can't do jack-shit modeling even if my life depended on it. Maria knows this (she's the one that was stressing over the hw in my last journal) and so she wants to help me and another girl out with our characters (and gain more practice because SHE wants to be the modeler). So she asks Jeffrey (our teacher) if she could model for us and gain credit for it since you know...she'll be working on ours as well as her own. Well....he basically tells her no and that COLLABORATION ON PROJECTS IS SO SO BAD because you can't fire your friend if they don't deliver their share. Haha and yet everyone in this DEPARTMENT, Vic, David, Ali, John Mac our chairperson, everyone has been encouraging us to collaborate because it makes the projects loads better! (not to mention that you get more varied material to put on your reel/resume)

And FURTHERMORE....after Maria told him that I'm an animator and I can't model well, he looks me right in the eye, and with this condescending tone of voice, basically tells me "OH well you can watch a tutorial and you'll catch onto modeling real easy."

UHM EXCUSE ME???? Did you even LISTEN!? Who the fuck do you think you are telling me that I should just catch on to modeling? Don't you think that if I could I would've "caught on" this past YEAR AND A HALF? You wouldn't automatically assume a painter, just because they're a visual artist, will be awesome at sculpting (ahem on the computer)?

And why are we even focusing on MODELING MODELING OMG to begin with...the other class is focusing on their pre-vis, which is the 2d storyboard turned into 3D to make sure that everything actually works in virtual space so you don't waste your efforts on building things for a failed scene...no wonder why his students from the first semester were/are so far behind and still working on STORYBOARDS (OMFG 2 hours discussing/overanalyzing a perfectly fine story...I want to pull my hair out every time!).

Apparently people like me are rare in the department...people who LOVE ANIMATING and DESPISE MODELING (everyone seems to want to model for a living here, I feel very.....different and WTFish....every graduate's thesis has always been a short animation film....why are you here). Maybe this is why he's being an ASShole and ASSuming that I'm just like everyone else.

I'm so special.